Important to Me

 It was easier for me when I was younger to turn to my Heavenly Father for things. It did not really matter what it was I would pray to him. I remember the day I gained a true testimony of prayer and that Heavenly Father answers your needs. I was helping my dad clean the church. We opened up one of the rooms that was locked and then the keys would not come out of the door. My dad tried to remove them for a few minutes and then I tried a time or two well he was standing by me. My dad then stated that we ought to just finish cleaning the church and we would come back to get them out afterwards. I was uneasy with that idea so I quickly said a prayer, waited a moment, and then I decided I would try to remove the keys just this one last time. I remember saying a silent prayer again as I reached out for the keys and as soon as I tried to remove them they came out so willingly. It may seem like such a simple thing that one would wonder why that would make such an impact. I have no doubt in my mind that my Heavenly Father was letting me know that he was there for me and that he did not want me to be so uneasy. I am grateful for that moment and for the strong testimony that followed it and is still strong today. I love my Heavenly Father. I am so grateful for him. Years later I had another testimony builder. Ian was two years old just barely and for selfish reasons I was thinking about being done having children. Knowing that I was being so selfish I decided I needed to pray about whether I should have another baby. I prayed about this quite a few times. One night after a few weeks of praying I had a dream. It was the most vivid dream full of such pure and peaceful feelings. I saw some of my Tongan family who have passed on. They were there with me holding my sweet son in their arms telling me that I had this baby coming to me. I spent some time with them just following them as we shared feelings. Even though it was all wordless I knew without a doubt that I had gotten my answer. I awoke the next morning and told Aarron that we had a baby waiting for us and that he was ready to come down here. It was such an amazing experience in my life that I cannot really explain it in words even. I do however still remember the peace of the place I shared with my relatives and the unbelievable joy! I am so glad that I had the opportunity to see them and to have such a special experience. There was more then one testimony I got from that. One was that we do receive personal revalation when we need them, Two that there is beyond any doubt a beautiful life for us after this, and Three that there is so much love and joy to share with our families here and beyond and with many others from this gospel. I do know that God and Jesus Christ love us and want what is best for us. I know they are there for us in our times of joy and sorrow. I am grateful for my experiences and the gospel in my life. I am overjoyed to have the knowledge that I do and the chance to learn the many things I do not yet understand. I also know that it is okay that I do not have all the answers because when I need to know something I can ask my Heavenly Father and he will let me know in his time.

Ramblings

So I know that god has plan and purpose for me life which is a great thing. Sometimes though it would be nice just to see a layout of the next few months in advance. I am not asking for a detailed description, but a little hint maybe. :) No really I am glad I get to enjoy life as it comes! We have hard days around here just like everyone else, but at the end of the day I get to walk in to my kids bedrooms at night and cover them up yet again and enjoy their sweet innocence. My kids hold my heart in their hands. They are my whole world. I know I am such a blessed woman to have such sweet beautiful children, an amazing husband, and a wonderful father in heaven. I have struggled lately mostly due to stress which leaves me feeling overwhelmed. I wish I could say my first reaction was to get down on my knees and pray to my father in heaven for help. Sadly that is not the case. It took me the last month and a half or so to finally go what are you doing Brisha...he is always there to answer your prayers and he has never left you out there on your own. Needless to say yesterday was a good turning point for me and a great wake up call. I am hoping that I will continually remember to ask for his help as I need it during my prayers. I think I had just gotten myself to a point where I felt like I should not ask for things from him because I felt like I was asking for to much. I mean look at what he has already given me. I don't know why I would feel bad for asking for help because that is part of what the atonement is there for. I want to be a great example to my children, and I want to have the spirit be a strong presence in my home. I hope I can instill that in my children so that as they face their own challenges they never doubt where to turn at every needed moment!